Shall we taste the sky You and I Shall we get on our knees breathe in the dirt Not in …
10 years ago, I was an Intern leading the project team for a 350 person sales meeting in downtown Toronto.
During the same week that we were there, Toronto was abuzz with TIFF – the Toronto International Film Festival.
During the pitch a few months before, the advertising company came in and pitched ACTION! as the meeting theme.
That was it!
And yet the marketing folks did not like that they did just one – and so back to the drawing board. A pointless exercise really – – they had it right all along -The ACTION Sales Meeting was born.
In Dec 2015, as I was suffering under the weight of my life awry and sitting in my seat during the Landmark’s Advanced Course, the leader said that most of her colleagues around the world – work for 3 weeks a month and then get a week off. Me she said, I work a week and spend 3 weeks in bed recovering, explaining that she had lupus.
I don’t suffer she said, just take ACTION.
This week I took ACTION placing my Cabin on Airbnb. I had been thinking about it for 2 years wanting to but doubting whether anyone would want to come and not wanting to deal with the rejection and did nothing.
Werner Erhard, the founder of the work that Landmark Education bases its work on says “we need to get clear for ourselves, that the only access to impacting life is through ACTION.
“the world does not care what you intend, how committed you are, how you feel or what you think, and certainly has no interest in what you want and don’t want. Take a look at life as it is lived and see for yourself that the world only moves for you when you act”
And I am seeing that for myself these last two days.
All my thoughts, ponderings, wondering about what to do with my cabin – how could I have it be that I could keep it – afford to maintain it, while working through my current financial space had no impact whatsoever.
I needed to take ACTION.
Yet only hours after the listing got posted, I had my first potential customer, then two. Then I shared it on Facebook and I witnessed other people sharing it also and people asking questions clarifying my rules of the place – Pets – Sure”
When my Rotary Club posts on Facebook, we sometime beg people to share our posts. Liking it does not do it anymore – sharing it is where it is at. So far my initial post has been shared 9 times and liked 37 times And I have had two serious inquiries and one booking. (That’s the world moving for me)
Today, one day later, I welcomed my first 3 guests to my Airbnb. (After 6 hours of ACTION called cleaning) …my house could use that as well.
And my brain is on fire – thinking of how I can market it as the fall & winter approaches.
Along with my 6 hours of cleaning, I made sure to pick up a bottle of Red (the colour of choice) and a new Guest Book, at Hallmark in Mount Pearl. I set up a new category on my expense app that I track all my expenses for Airbnb and Cabin Rental for bookings outside of that model.
I can see that my first guest will bring me $168.78 and so far I have had an outlay of $95.65.
And I want to give a shout out to The Airbnb app – it has been seamless and simple. I have used it twice as a traveller for that Dec 2015 trip to Toronto and an amazing find of a listing in Los Cabos Mexico in Dec 2016. And yet this is my first time as a host. (I wonder if I can augment my house income by doing it also for the house I rent – my mom’s room likely won’t be getting used any time soon)
And I can kick myself all I want about why I never listed it last week or the month or year before that. None of that matters. All that matters is that I did it.
Recovery is like that too – an ACTION program. Suffering is optional.
My mom has been sick for 9 weeks following her fall and broken hip and since that time, both of my dogs have died. It landed heavy on me and I could not seem to get out of my own way in terms of putting pen to paper to write this blog or to write a poem, or take ACTION in the way that I must in terms of my business.
And yet while I have been silent, I have been in ACTION in my recovery. In doing the work, making the calls, reading, going to meetings, and talking to my sponsor. My sobriety is growing for which I am so grateful.
Today I wrote a poem for the first time in a while, called “Taste the Sky” after using those words to tell a songwriter why my cabin was such a great place to create.
For today, I have come to the end – as it is way past my bedtime.
So I have to ask – what are you waiting to take ACTION on?
An exploration of inspiration
Gang leaders and Nobel peace laureates sharing on creating peace
Here and now
Moving beyond who I am
Or moving toward who I am
As a natural expression
Expander of possibility
Into the wider unknown
A space of abundance
Wanting to understand
Listening to the words
Understanding the pain
Understanding the loss
I just listen to the wind
It moves through me like the breath of God
It moves over me like an artists brush
It runs through my hair
Flows through my soul
And leaves with a whisper
Like she never visited at all
Just be on…there is love
Alone with my thoughts
It is love that graces me
That moves me
Causing feelings to rise
To emerge wanting to pass through
Getting caught in my throat
Why do I hang on so
Allow to rise
which is broken within
October 31 – ( that which flowed through listening to Alcatraz by Hey Rosetta)
Is it possible that only God knows
Only God knows why you had that car accident
Only God knows why your sister won’t speak to you
Only God knows why I keep making the same mistakes over and over
Is it possible that there is no value in wondering why, over and over and over again
Is it possible that only God knows why people die too early, others die too late.
Is it possible that there are lessons to learn that only God knows
Is it possible that no matter what might be our best human efforts that only God knows why we don’t succeed and others succeed
I ponder these things some times
I ponder as I worry and fret
Is it possible that maybe just maybe we will never know
That only God knows
now…I can hear the waves as they crash rhythmically on the shore
now…a plane flies high overhead
now…the wind gently blows in my face
now… the only light I see is the light from my screen
now…I can taste the salty air
now…darkness envelopes me as the wind dances around my external mirror
now… I am feeling sleepy
now…I am moving my foot up and down
I can feel my breath going in and out
And I can feel God as he slowly makes his expression known through me
Now I am going to stop this
Close my eyes and take it all in
Gordon Martin (Sept 10, 2015)
I am rising
Not much has changed…everything has changed
My outer circumstances look the same…my inner focus has shifted
And I could point to so many things that started this transformation
And yet I would have to go back to the beginning of time to find that moment.
I am rising – because I am being a Cause in the Matter.
I am rising because I chose to rise
Because I am surrendering my will
And living my life on life’s terms
And I am choosing wellness over money
And I am choosing connection over isolation
And I am choosing Love over resentment
And I am choosing expression over hiding out
And I am choosing acknowledgement of others
I am choosing accountability
I am choosing being a student
I am choosing to view my struggles as opportunities
I am choosing to listen
And accept that I am where I am and ultimately that is perfect.
Look at me, I am rising.
God Bless you and your journey
And I need you to know that I too have been depressed, confused, scared, ashamed, alone, and feeling like I was going backward, going downward fast. And all those feelings still exist in me – yet for right now I am glad to say that they are not being fed. I am feeding that which sustains me.
I so wish I could sing yet am so grateful I can talk
I may be fat but soon can be fit
And i fall down, so many times
Yet I can get back up and
I can stand
When we look for things to be grateful
For in our lives
Are we willing to be humble enough enough to just be grateful
For these simple things
I have legs and I can stand
I have feet and can walk
I have eyes and I can see
I have ears and I can hear
I have a tongue and I can talk
I have teeth and can chew
Sometimes we make things so complicated
thinking we have so little be grateful for
Yet we must look close
Can you breathe
That is where you can start
Today I am grateful for every thing – in all the places where I am broken and all the places where I am well.
I find myself
inspired this morning
Inspired by the evolution of life
By the beauty contained within
By the expression without
Each soul with its own special gift
Remaining hidden from many unwilling
Exploding the world around with color sight and sound
I want to drink in this inspiration
To breathe it deeply into the depths of my being
So I too can never forget the magic I too contain.
GM – Aug 8, 2015
No I am not interested
No thanks I have one
No fuck off, not today, not any day
Not on a boat
Not in a moat
Not on a train or on a plane
As adults we forget how many no’s we dished out to our kids, minute by minute, day by day, hour by hour for years. My kids have not given up yet.
I am just starting off in a new business where getting no’s is par for the course.
I just got my first one, and while I said that this is what I was playing for today – i have to say that I was surprised at how quickly the seeds of doubt came flying back in.
“This is not going to work”
“What if everyone says no”
All that shit. I am sure you could tell me far more than that
Well today I am going to be like my kids,
Pick myself up
Dust myself off
And work for my second no.
There is a secret that our kids know just too well. If they ask enough times, they are going to get a yes.
And so am I- and that is going to be one of the many yes’s I am going to get.
…even if they are surrounded by all those terribly wonderful no’s.
Have a glorious weekend.
Who could refuse? “please dad”